And I'll meet you further on up the road

[ultraviolet9a]

>> And I’ll meet you further on up the road.

 

TITLE: And I’ll meet you further on up the road.

AUTHOR: ultraviolet9a
SPOILER: A lot possibly. Especially after in my Time of Dying, Croatoan and Hunted.

GENRE: Gen. Has a future tint to it.
CHARACTERS: Dean Winchester, (the Demon, Sam Winchester)

SUMMARY: Two roads. The world. A gun.

RATING: PG-13. Cuz of bad language.
FEEDBACK: Dude…duh. 
DISCLAIMER: I don’t own them, I just write about them. Alas.

NOTE: 2007 has started off in a lousy manner. Was trying to cope. Hence the angst thingy.
NOTE2: Sequel/companion piece (rounding up and tying loose ends) is here: And I'll meet you further on up the road: the flipped side of the coin

 

Graveyard boots:

 

Once upon a time the world is swallowed up in fire. Not the fire that burns forests and has troops trying to put them out. Not the burn of a third world war that people have feared and predicted for years.

 

This is the fire of hell, and the world resides in it. Demons roam free, incarnating with absolute freedom. There is no prayer or chant to make them go away, no god to pray to, not one who will listen. They roam free of worldly shackles, a new playground theirs for the taking.

 

Dean’s thinking of bullies in high school. Claiming, taking, ruling. Hurting. Just because.

 

This is the nature of demons, and demons are big bullies, and Dean’s watching what’s left of humanity hide in the corner hoping to pass unnoticed.

 

They’re walking the street and civilization collapses under the heavy march.

 

Dean sees it clearly in his mind and once upon a time he would have stood up, kept on fighting, found a way to make things right, because that’s what the Winchesters do. On occasion.

 

Once upon a time. Now Dean doesn’t care. It was Winchester blood that brought the world down and Sam is lost to him to the other side. Dean’s feet feel heavy, his boots thudding around to a beat that says death would have been better. The Demon won’t let him. The Demon will bestow him life, over and over again, to let him watch how he lost the war.

 

How he lost his brother.

 

Dean keeps on walking, blending in, more ghost than human.

 

He sees it clearly in his mind.

 

He should have pulled the trigger.

 

 

Dead man’s suit:

 

Once upon a time the world almost got lost to fire. It was in a fraction of a second, and that fraction seemed to last forever, till time moved again, and the world was still there as it’s always been.

 

Cars moving, light changing, night falling, day breaking, people moving sleeping fucking dying living, same old story practiced over and over again.

 

Dean can see it clearly in his mind, because he knows this world. Has loved this world.

 

More than his brother.

 

Less than his brother.

 

The world didn’t change, but Dean did. Like a ghost, driving around, trying to forget his brother’s face. No more ties, all he’s loved dead and he’s thinking that as far as he’s concerned the Demon’s won.

 

He would have liked to shove the same gun in his mouth and pull the trigger, but knows neither Sam nor Dad would have approved. He doesn’t think they’ll approve of this pit he’s sunk into right now, but this one he can’t help.

 

There’s pain in his head that won’t go away and is stronger whenever he dreams. He always dreams.

 

If he had done this or done that….if his world had changed. The world didn’t. It stood still and stamped Cain’s mark on him and Dean can see the endless years ahead of him as a wait to the other side.

 

He sees it clearly in his mind.

 

He should never have pulled the trigger.

 

 

Where the gun is cocked:

 

Once upon a time Dean Winchester is cocking the gun that will save the world.

 

Once upon a time Dean Winchester is cocking the gun that will kill his brother.

 

There are two roads he can walk now. He can see them clearly in his mind. They play out like fucking blockbusters with Dolby surround and his trigger finger trembles slightly looking at Sam Winchester.

 

All the steps and miles and years leading here.

 

Two roads.

 

And neither is leading to salvation.

 

He is a Winchester, Dean’s thinking and accepts the loss of hope.

 

He is a Winchester.

 

And salvation has never been for their bloodline.

 

-The End.

 

 

Sidenote: Main title and chapter titles taken from Johnny Cash’s “Further on up the Road”. It’s a brilliant song you’ll find a wee bit further down, which gives a new perspective to the fic. Possibly. Don’t know. Anyway, I don’t mean to infringe on any rights, nor make profit of the song or anything of the sort. Total disclaimer here.

 

 

 

Further on up the Road

By Johnny Cash

 

Where the road is dark and the seed is sowed
Where the gun is cocked and the bullet's cold
Where the miles are marked in the blood and gold
I'll meet you further on up the road

Got on my dead man's suit and my smilin' skull ring
My lucky graveyard boots and song to sing
I got a song to sing, keep me out of the cold
And I'll meet you further on up the road.

Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Where the way dark and the night is cold
One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road.

Now I been out in the desert, just doin' my time
Searchin' through the dust, lookin' for a sign
If there's a light up ahead well brother I don't know
But I got this fever burnin' in my soul
So let's take the good times as they go
And I'll meet you further on up the road

Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Further on up the road

One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road
One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road.

Comments

[nerthus.livejournal.com]

Don't know if I am just extremely hormonal or what today, but all these killer angsty fics and vids I've been absorbing this morn are making me bawl like a baby, sigh. This fic HURT me, it was just so wrenching; and you're right, the song lyrics are SO great and fit the show so well. I'm discovering that so many amazing songs fit our boys and the whole arc of the show just perfectly; such a wealth of wonderful material out there to enrich our enjoyment of the series. I am so glad I found this fandom!!

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

I'm not happy when people get hurt *hands you cookies* but i'm glad that this fic hurt you too. Cuz it means i did sth right in the writing of it and got the angst i had in my head across.

And because i can be way too emotional in what i write, but prefer slivers of hope in the end and this is the first oh so total angsty no hope fic i submitted and i was sort of jittery about it, thank you so much for your comment. Put me at my ease again.

And yes, lots of songs fit those boys, don't they? *sigh* I love this fandom too. I blame Kripke. I also blame Whedon. They turned me into a drama queen. :)

[kimonkey7.livejournal.com]

The Demon will bestow him life, over and over again, to let him watch how he lost the war.

Ooh. Very creeptastic and horrible thought. Oh, Dean...

Thanks for sharing.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

And thank you for commenting! Loved the "creeptastic" characterization! :)
(though seriously i feel so bad angsting the boys like that. I like them too much for that dammit. *mumbles*)

[1grl-revolution.livejournal.com]

I agree about this line. Its such a powerful line and it really makes me feel for Dean.

Beautiful story. Well done.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[slaysvamps.livejournal.com]

This was very good, thanks for posting it. I absolutely loved the two roads Dean has to choose from. Very interesting.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for commenting!

[theladyscribe]

Oh, Dean.

This was incredible. That kid - I swear, he's gonna be the death of me. They both are.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

That kid - I swear, he's gonna be the death of me. They both are.
Add their daddy to the mix, and I'm right there with you. :)

Thanks for commenting!

[apieceofcake.livejournal.com]

Oh the angst..oh, Dean...

Nicely done, thanks :-)

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. And yeah....that boy makes you want to protect him somehow. Despite his tough attitude.

[x5vale.livejournal.com]

It hurts, but it's beautiful.


Adding to mem!

Thank you.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Thank you so, so much! :)

[baileytc.livejournal.com]

Very angsty. Poor, doomed Dean.

BTW, the song is written by Bruce Springsteen and first appeared on "The Rising." Johnny Cash subsequently covered it.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

BTW, the song is written by Bruce Springsteen and first appeared on "The Rising." Johnny Cash subsequently covered it.

Can i save face by claiming that it was the Cash version that inspired me? And then hide under my desk? :) Thanks for pointing it out.

And commenting. :)

[baileytc.livejournal.com]

Absolutely. :) No face lost whatsoever. It's not like it's a particularly well-known song. I haven't heard Cash's version, so you've made me want to go look for it.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Yei! :) *hug*

[smilla02.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow! I love how you played the contrapposition: SaveSam/condemn the world, Kill/Sam save the world, and that in both cases Dean dies. This is achy and hurty, thank you for sharing.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Deep down i'm an optimist but when i angst, i angst. :) Am so glad you liked it.

[tigriswolf]

Oh, wow.

Ouch.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

*grin* thank you.

[hiyacynth.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'm going to have to read this again when I get more caught up, because DAMN, woman, that was great! I'm so behind. But I wanted to leave you a note saying, DAMN WOMAN!!

:-)

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Note duly noted! *hug* {I am grinning like mad now, cuz hey, I'm the Damn, Woman. Yei!!)

Got also a sort of companion piece for this one planned and all that, but don't know when i'll be writing it. We'll see.

[ewanspotter.livejournal.com]

That song eeriely fits Supernatural. Excellent, excellent job. Not a happy future there, but it's beautifully written.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Am very happy you enjoyed it. Thank you. :)

[scuppernong.livejournal.com]

I read this when you first posted it several days ago, but forgot to leave a comment telling you how much I loved it. Seeing your companion piece pop up on my flist reminded me. Thank you for writing such a beautiful story with so much vivid imagery. The sense of dread infusing the story is almost solid. I enjoyed it very much... as much as one can enjoy tormenting our boys. *grins*

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

The sense of dread infusing the story is almost solid.

It's comments like these that make my day. :) Thank you for coming back and leaving your comment. I am glad you enjoyed it...and heh...yeah...tormenting them feels right but in a wrong way. Or wrong but in a right way. *scratches head* (I'm usually not the terminally angsty type but I have my moments.)

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

I meant "comments like this" btw. Not "these". Let's pretend I know syntax on occasion. :)

[scuppernong.livejournal.com]

Well, at least they're pretty when they angst! If you don't mind, I'd like to friend your journal so I can read all your fics. :) Pleased to meetcha!

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

They're pretty...pretty much all of the time really. It's got to be their genes. Full of prettines. *sigh* :)

And no, i don't mind. I'm delighted.

Pleased to meet you too! :)

sorry more than a few days late

[daydream03.livejournal.com]

There are two roads he can walk now. He can see them clearly in his mind. They play out like fucking blockbusters with Dolby surround and his trigger finger trembles slightly looking at Sam Winchester.

THIS just made me shiver.

dark, brooding, forbiding (I'm trying not to use 'angst'), & powerful.
All senarios play out in my head like a movie I can see the expressions on Dean's face.

Off to read part two.

Re: sorry more than a few days late

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

{hey, there is no such thing as "late". Commenting is not obligatory[but is very much appreciated :)] and doesn't have deadlines, so no apologies necessary! :)}

Am so glad you read it though. And liked it!

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

This is extremely haunting. Well done.

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

You're welcome!

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

O!!!

OMG...

*Weeps quietly*

*Clings like a limpet*

*Snifflesob*

*Holds Dean close*

*Loves you*

*HUGS*

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

I didn't mean to make you cry... *hands you chocolate cookies* But hey, i'm so, so happy that you liked it! *hug*